Wow this was one involved response. My younger version would have laughed this off but my present version is enlightened enough to see the massive depth of your story.

"As I sit among the audience I also watch my performance", such a powerful statement and I totally relate to what you're saying.

It's the same with me. These thoughts and ideas would plague my mind earlier but now they're just boredom-alleviators.

Thank you so much for reading and responding Paul